Wordless Wednesday – “Golden Sunset”

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Life and Work Continue

It was soooo hard to write yesterday’s post, as I’m sure you can realize…

But the outpouring of sympathy for Lucas is amazing.  I’m very glad I got to share him here with you.  Your words mean so much… and I stopped by his grave tonight to tell him about you and your comments…

I may be posting some of my favorite photos of him at the end of the next few posts… because I can.


Of course, life and work continue on at the Greet Ranch…

We recently bled our heifers… it’s an early way to confirm pregnancy so that we know if they caught on the AI.  Brandon has become quite the expert at lifting tails and taking a quick blood sample from the large vein on the underside of the tail.  If the heifer stands relatively still, he can extract a blood sample into the vacuum tubes in about 15 seconds from start to finish.

The sample is then mailed to a lab, where they can tell us quickly which heifers are pregnant.  Brandon has an excellent write up over at his blog.

Jaxon came to help this day… and was, understandably, a bit cautious around the chute.  The heifers are big… and the chute makes a lot of noise, but he really wanted to help.  At first, he’d stretch to hand Uncle Brandon the vacuum tubes.

Then he’d help Aunt Megan encourage them up the alley.

He did well… he’d call out the number of the heifer… although it was usually “forty two six” instead of “four twenty six”… but he’s five… and I could figure it out!

Paperwork seems to be my job…

By the end, Jaxon was an old hand…

And he was very willing to share his experience with Quinlan who showed up at the end.


Four dogs.  Four memories. April 2011.

The End of a Journey

How do you start?  How do you begin to tell the story when your heart is ripped out and tears pour from your eyes?  Your fingers spend as much time wiping your eyes and nose as they do typing.  This is the post all dog owners know they will write at some point.  The one you don’t *want* to write – EVER.

When we’re lucky, we find THAT dog.  That one that understands you, that pokes his nose under your hand when you’re sad, the one that can look at you with the goofiest grin just to make you smile.  The one that poses in his regal way even if he didn’t really like cameras.  The one that would work himself to death because you asked.  You know.  I’ve written about him for years.  I’ve posted photos and videos and stories and even won an amazing award with one of his photos.

I will say it.  On July 5, 2018, I had the vet drive all the way to the ranch to put Lucas to sleep under the shade of my cottonwood trees.  He deserved that at least.  He deserved so much more.  I could not bring myself to have him die in the vet’s office on a hard metal table with little yappy dogs in the background and the thousand smells of illness and pain.  So as the house wren sang and the ranch’s summer sounds of sprinklers and tractors serenaded him, The Good Doctor eased a shot into my sable boy and he slipped away underneath my loving hands.

I had been preparing for days… but all the preparation in the world still cannot ease the pain when the last breath of your best friend eases from his body.  I couldn’t write about it, I couldn’t think about it, I went on auto pilot for a bit.  I attended my Girl Scout reunion where unheard messages had been passed around and I received few words, thank goodness, because that would have tipped me over the edge into blubbering sobs, but instead I got quiet hugs, and short sympathetic phrases that I could handle.  They lifted me up as friends do and made me enjoy days that otherwise I would have wallowed in my tears.  Thanks, ladies…

Monday I had taken Lucas and Eden over to the vet for their first AI session of this cycle.  We’d tried it Saturday, but Lucas was uncooperative on his part.  This Monday AI session was more successful, at least Lucas produced some semen for Eden.  We returned home and I let them out of the Jeep.  After unloading groceries, I noticed Lucas laying in an unusual place, but didn’t think that much of it, until I came back out an hour later, and he was still there.  He was hurting and didn’t want to move.  I wasn’t sure if he had twisted something getting out of the car, or just had a catch in his get-along from AI-ing.  He had laid in the hot sun on a hot day, and we were concerned about heat stroke as he lapped up the water we held.

By dark, there was no doubt his current pain meds weren’t enough.  Victoria drug out my sleeping bags for me, and I pitched camp alongside Lucas in the grass.  I dozed through the night, 80% sure this was his last on earth.  It wasn’t, so in the morning we bundled him up and returned to the vet.  Blood work was good.  The exam by the Good Doctor found extreme pain in his neck and shoulder area.  He could have hurt himself getting out of the car… he could have slipped a disc.  With three bad legs, his one good one could no longer hold him up. 

He came home with steroids and extreme pain meds.  Forty eight hours was going to be the test period.  I kept him under the shade of the cottonwoods… he drank but wouldn’t eat.  He’d suffer the embarrassment of wetting himself because he couldn’t stand.  He’d raise his head and try to sit up in that famous Lucas pose, then flop over exhausted.  

I brushed and petted and cried and read to him and reminisced and told him how good of a dog he had always been.  I apologized for leaving when my Girl Scout obligations pulled me away, and held my breath when I returned, waiting for the white tip of his tail to wave at me as I drove in.  He scared me again and again… but he would open his eyes and lay a paw on top of my hand.  In concern or sympathy or forgiveness or even to simply ease his pain by elevating it a bit, I will never know.  

Lucas, “bringer of light”, had led me on a wonderful journey these past 12 years.  I learned about the English Shepherd breed.  I met people from all across the U.S.  I delved into dog training and breeding and acupressure and reading therapy and T-touch and genetics.  I brought in Elsa from De Butcher and sold puppies from coast to coast.  I raised Dally and met more people breeding her.  I made a website so people could find me and called it Rimrock English Shepherds… where I started a small sideline blog at first entitled “Overlook”.  

It was all because of Lucas Cade.  

Because he wasn’t just a Good Dog.  He was a Great Dog.  That final afternoon I told him so.  I told him to run far and fast on his newly healed legs.  To bounce through the grass with a goofy grin on his face with no pain for the first time in over eleven years.  I told him I’d be okay, that him being free from this extreme pain was more important than how I felt.  I told him to look up some guy named Charlie Burton, who taught me to love dogs… and that Jerri Burton would be there too.  She was the nice lady who went along on his acupuncture treatment.

I fell silent.  I ran my fingers through his lion mane.  I buried my face in his fur and breathed deeply.  I looked into those golden and brown eyes for the last time, and knew how lucky I have been to share my life with him.  My sister-in-law wrote, “Lucas has always been a special dog, not only for what he endured, but the spirit in which he endured it.”  That is perfect.

So Eden and I walk quietly around the place, glancing at his favorite shady spots by habit.  We expect his galumphing gait to sound across the floor.  She sniffs at where he lay that last time.  Vernon insisted on digging his grave, and oh, my… I thought I had myself under control until Vernon joined me in shedding some tears.  There was no doubt, Lucas Cade, that we loved you!  He now lays next to Elsa and Dally and Colt… just outside my studio.

For years, I’ve cried at the words of this poem, knowing that someday it’d be me saying the words…

“… if you’ve never owned a big Malamute (or English Shepherd), perhaps you can’t understand, that ol’ longing I get, especially at night, just to feel his big head in my hands.  So at times in the hush of an evening, when the winds have grown tired and are still, I’ll sit here just waiting for Memory to call, just hoping she’ll bring Big Wicked Bill (or Lucas Cade)!”

I love you, boy.  Good dog.


Poor Thing

A little side track… please indulge me.

On the way home from our Girl Scout staff reunion, I spotted this poor mule deer.  Well, he crossed the road right in front of me, so he was hard to miss!  I thought at first that he was covered in burdock… but that wasn’t the case.

He seems to be covered in warts.  They circled his neck, and were scattered along his body.  The flies seemed to be harassing him as well.  He walked away, constantly shaking his head.

He would rub his face in the dirt as well.

When I arrived home, I contacted the game warden’s wife… and she passed along the sad news to her husband.  I felt very sorry for this young guy… but if this is a viral thing, I also don’t want him sharing with other deer.

I haven’t heard if they’ve found him… but I hope so.  It looks like he’s had a miserable life for quite a while.

Lift Your Spirits

Today was the official day for the Girl Scout National Center West reunion.  Working for this fantastic national camp was the way I ended up in Ten Sleep.  Seventy former staff and campers gathered at what is now the Nature Conservancy’s Ten Sleep Preserve.  We talked and looked at photos and slides and hiked and took a bus tour and talked and laughed and told stories… and more stories… and maybe a few more stories.

I took video everywhere so I could share it with those who were unable to make it out here to Wyoming.  That will take some editing, but I hope to have it together soon.

Some people have been here for a few days, so every evening lately, I’ve been meeting up with a growing number of women who shared experiences and love for this Girl Scout camp.  We are a varied demographic, full of labels that could break us into assorted groups, but we are held together with a passion for what we did for girls at this camp, as well as what this camp did for us.  Each one of us could tell you multiple stories on how GSNCW changed our lives, and so we met together one more time to celebrate how incredibly lucky we were to have worked in such a high quality environment.

Tomorrow I will work on the video… but I want to give a big salute to those who lifted my spirits today in so many ways.

I appreciate every one of you, and I know how blessed I have been to have you in my life!

(the camp has multiple pictograph sites… this is just a tiny little thing we called The Little Red Man)